Times Definitely Change

A heads up; my mind is scattered.


A lot has happened in the past few months, let alone from the last blog i posted.
Metromint waters are ridiculously unpleasant. That was one thing i have learned this week.

More Things Caitlin has Learned Recently:
2. never say you will do something. say you will most likely be doing it. chances are God has something in mind for you that doesn't coincide with your plans.
3. you sometimes need to make a good decision based on gut feelings. Don't overthink something.
4. i still love deathmetal.
5. wood earings can handle anything.
6. if you stick with something (like rugby!) for over about 9 days, you will be glad you did it. even if it hurts. and damn does it hurt!
7. i have a good chunk of my life planned out. i know that all those plans will most likely fade with time, and i accept that. but it's good to have options. hah, and i thought i would never want to go to secondary school!
8. sometimes sleeping is the answer.
9. pretty people don't make friends, they make bitches, whipped friends and people who strive on scandal. why want to be like someone you loathe?
10. i don't believe in coincidence and i don't believe in chance. i believe that everything that happens in life has a specific purpose- for somebody.
11. i am stoked for owning my own house! i bought book ends the other day. book ends?!

Life has been pretty hectic lately. I quit my job(yes!) and started rugby. So far i haven't gotten hurt, minus an epic bruise on my leg. We owned our first exhibition game with 41-7! I think a big negative factor in my spiritual life right now is simply time. I need to work on reconnecting with God. Recently I was tested for diabetes which was quite a scare, but hallelujah that turned out negative. I have been thinking about going to ACAD for a year or two before heading out to Emily Carr in Vancouver. And Greece has been on my mind! I am definitely planning to work at Gull Lake Baptist Camp the summer after graduation. Lord willing with a position that would suite me. And for now...in the spare time that I do have, I pull out my paints or go for a walk with a camera that I am borrowing from a friend. The guitar has grown dusty, but I'm still only waiting for that inspiration that seems like it will never come.
My mind is a scattered puzzle which someday I hope will become understandable to me. Above all I miss my sister Kellen, who is currently residing in Africa. I feel like I'm growing- only feel like. I notice sometimes that i lack the enjoyment of things i used to, and I'm thinking a lot more logically than emotionally based. You can usually tell my state of mind by the state of my room. At the moment it looks like a tornado hit it.

To better days,
black-haired-girl.